Fishy guilt

My initial and main purpose for becoming vegan was for health purposes, and not just to lose weight.. but to maintain a healthy body that will live longer and feel healthier. So now I seem to have confused alot of my friends & family about what I have been doing and why. At a family gathering I told everyone I was on a "special diet" that is cholesterol free. This was an easy and accurate explanation and it was received well. 

However, next family gathering my grandma did not understand why I wouldn't eat baked chicken since it was "healthy". "You're not eating chicken?!" Apparently that is the staple of most diets. She had even gone and bought a healthier butter wish is very sweet. Smart Balance is almost Earth Balance except it has animal products in it. 

I really am committed to becoming a full fledge Vegan. Everyone keeps asking me if I am going to be a vegan forever.. what a question. Can you imagine if you were dating someone and everyone kept asking if it was going to be forever.. Actually I went through that too. My point is YES, I hope so and I plan to! 

Now, although my original intent was to become a vegan for health reasons I have also done ALOT of research into the treatment of these animals and now it is also for ethical reasons. Not to mention the complete repulsion and disgust I feel when I think about where this meat has come from. And this knowledge/feeling is not something I want to be desensitized from again. 

So my weekly update-- I've been doing so good but last Saturday I was at a Movie tavern with no options besides fried french fries (which would not have been vegan either due to meat being fried in the same vat).. or Fish Tacos. So I ordered fish tacos and they were good but may have been just as good without the fish.. I will try that next time and see. I have a harder time empathizing with fish and really need to make this a focus and do more research on what happens to fish. I may end up abstaining from fish for Environmental reasons.

I hate having to tell other vegans that I am a new vegan (except that I occasionally mess up and eat fish)... because really that just makes me a non lacto ovo pescavore and who has time to say all that..